So there was a long time when I knew exactly what I wanted to do with my life - be the best soprano ever of all time. I still mostly want that, but it's hampered by a couple of things: my utter lack of funds (takes it to make it folks!) my lack of a place to practice (a problem I'm still attempting to handle) and my lack of being a real person.
Basically what I'm saying is that living with my parents is going to get to me. Not because they're terrible - they're quite the opposite, in fact, treating me like an actual for real adult. And not because I don't like where I live - it's nice. I'm just too old for this now. I'm too old to be in the place where I lived for a long time, and there isn't enough money in the area to get me out of here fast enough for me.
Should I be looking for another job? Maybe. Maybe I could do something that paid more and used more of my marketable skills. Maybe I will mostly look for one for the new year so that I can finish out the train season. Or maybe I can convince them to pay me more. I just wish I could be in a place that I love with people I love doing things I love, but I'm not sure that I have the skills or funds or confidence or person-hood for that. Maybe I'm just twitchy about everything and indecisive because I'm stuck here when I thought I would be so much farther by now. I'm not really stuck, I guess...I guess I've just made a choice to be doing what I'm doing about getting out of debt because I think it's a good idea for now. And I do think it's a good idea for now, I just can't let it get in the way of my singing, which I can't do in my house because there are always people there. And there should be - it's their house - but I mean, what am I supposed to do about this?
Drugs. I should probably do drugs about this.
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LMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Drugs, aaah! Stop it with the funny!
Well, there is obviously no simple answer to this but it's good that you wrote it all out. That shows that you're thinking objectively about this situation. Others of us are way too emotional about being home. Myself included. I want to scream most of the times. When I'm in my room trying to immerse myself in opera deliciousness and am interrupted, I get all 'woe is me'...why do they keep TALKing to me lol..duh, bc they like me and i live with them...ridiculous.
Anyway , like you said, you have many marketable skills. So, when this economy gets a little better, you should be able to get a good job in whichever state you'd like to live in...and you will be able to afford lessons and other singing goodies you may need.
You've got way more time than you think to do something else before you take the soprano plunge!!!
Aww thanks...it makes me feel a lot better that I'm not the only one! :) BE IN MY LIFE AGAIN SOON
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